My feelings of course make no sense. I have been going through a very sensual stage lately and have gotten in closer touch with my own sexuality than I ever have before. I know that I am an attractive woman. Not model material but still not ugly either. I guess most of my self-consciousness comes from my weight and that is up to me to do something about. I would never wish to go back to being 25yrs old and built like the proverbial brick house, (which btw I was). I would not trade all the looks in the world for the experience I have now.

They say with age comes wisdom and I guess that is true. I have of late been exploring more in depth the things I have always been curious about and never had the nerve or the opportunity to try. Now I would like to find a way to make that fantasy a reality.

I now find myself wanting more and more to experience all that life has to offer while I am still young enough to do so and not let the chance pass by because I am to scared of my own feelings of inadequacy. I often need to be able to see the desire in a man's eyes before I take the final leap, but once I do there is no stopping me.

Now to the moral, (pun intended), of this story. I live in a very small town where everyone knows everyone and everyone else's business. I normally try not do take foolish risk here in town. If I am going to fool around I usually go to one of the larger surrounding towns to do so. However, there is this kid who works at our local grocery store. Very cute young kid, about 19yrs old. Sexy as hell and built like a cover model. I have watched him in the store and he always has a bunch of sweet young things hanging on every syllable uttered from his lips. I know that he goes out on regular dates with a wide variety of girls.

When I first noticed him was in the check out lines, he was very talkative and flirtatious. Eventually we got to know each other's names and he would stop me and talk to me each time I went into the store. I never would have caught on to the sexual undertones until he started coming up to me in the check out line and putting his arms across my shoulders as I was paying for my groceries. He would press himself up against me in a way that made it obvious what his intentions were.

Well I am a natural born flirt. An opening like that I could not resist. I think it never really crossed my mind that he would want something more than a light flirtation. Then again I am not totally oblivious and soon caught on that he wanted more. I think I probably would have continued to tease him without carrying it farther but one day when he was carrying my groceries out to my car, I got a bit risqué with my flirtation, made a really cool parting shot and reached up to kiss him on the cheek, Thinking to make a grand exit. Boy was I in for a surprise. At the last minute when I went to kiss him on the cheek, he turned his head and planted a kiss on me that almost brought me to my knees. Deep seductive full tongues kiss right out in the middle of the parking lot of the only grocery store in town that everyone frequents. I must say I am a sucker for a good kiss.

Well I decided to go for it. He was young, hot, sexy, and gorgeous. I would be a fool to pass up such a chance. So I arranged to meet him. Being the older woman in this scenario, I made all the arrangements and rented the room, set the stage so to speak so that all he had to do was show up, which he did and even on time. I had on sexy lingerie and light perfume, candles and incense burning, lights dim and all the standard ideas of a seduction scene met. You would not believe the arrogant ideas I had in my head about how I was going to seduce him and show him the excitement of an older woman. Boy was I naive.

I met him at the door, looking my sexiest. He walked in and wrapped his arms around me and gave me another killer kiss. Before I even had a chance to catch my breath he had me backed to the bed and down I went with him on top of me. I don't think I have ever come across lips as fast as his. He traced a path down me with his mouth and wherever his lips touched the lingerie seem to disappear. I was not even aware until I looked down that he had removed my outfit he did it so smoothly.

I would have thought I was with a man of 100yrs experience had he not been so eager and curious about what he was doing. I find it amusing to say so but he was like a kid with a new toy. Tasting and testing every bit of me as if he had never before done so and wanted to do it all at once. Each touch and each lick was made and measured to see if he liked it and if I enjoyed it. I must admit that I was very oral in my pleasure and my moans of delight seem to echo around the room.

It was a wonder I didn't scare him. When he positioned himself between my legs, it was really a sight to see. He looked so closely as if exploring new territory. Using his fingers to part the lips and examine, then tentatively leaning forward to catch my scent to see if it was acceptable. When he finally touched his tongue to me I felt as if I had been struck by lightning and my hips came up off the bed. If I had not been in such an intense state of excitement it would have been amusing the way he tasted and teased me. He would run his tongue on my clit and feel it get hard, then move off to another part leaving me ready to scream. I was begging and giving instructions at the same time. Trying to guide him to give me release and still keep my sanity. The sheer unabashed delight on his face when he made me cum was priceless.

It took me a few minutes to recover and then turn the tables on him. I rolled him over on his back and started giving him the same oral attention that he had given me. Kissing him deeply and then working my way down. He gaze was glued to my mouth and what I was doing to him. I think it surprised him to discover that a mans nipples can be stimulated in much the same way a woman's can. By the time I licked my way down to his cock he was hard as a rock. I kept watching his face as I licked and sucked up and down his shaft. The pleasure and delight in his face was something I will never forget.

The most amazing thing to me was that once he exploded in my mouth he was still semi hard and it did not take long with me still sucking to get him erect again. His first orgasm might have been a bit swift but he more than made up with it on the next three. He seem to last forever as I climbed on him and rode him to his and my second orgasm. Fifteen minutes later he has me on my knees coming at me from behind, 45 minutes after that he finally gets me in the missionary position. I think he gave me a good reminder that I have the capability to be multi-orgasmic.

He left the room smiling and whistling. I think I crawled to the bathroom on my hands and knees and soaked for an hour in a hot tub I was so sore. But I felt more desirable and satisfied than I had in a very long time.

I realize that looks are not always important but that night I felt like a truly beautiful woman.

09/17/99